Opening the doors

I am always  grateful for being alive and living in the texture of life. What I mean by that is that I do not want nor expect my life to be a smooth flat line. Not in emotion nor event.

I prefer the texture of reality and all it’s seeming chaos.

I am in the flow at this moment with doors of opportunity opening all around me. I love being in that space.

It all started at the men’s superconference last month in Vancouver, BC. I was speaking there with some amazing other people.

Wade McNutt is an internationally know fitness expert and when he spoke of getting your body healthy by getting your pH under control I knew I had to make a change. I was drinking a coke at that moment and realized that I was holding back from being as healthy and dynamic as I could be. So right there in the middle of his speech I yelled.. ‘That’s it, this is my last coke!” and I threw it away that moment. Thank you Wade for being my motivation.

Change can happen in an instant…

In that instance I decided to accept health into my life in a way I had been flirting with my whole life. I actually went vegan that day and a month later eat mostly raw. I have lost 20 pounds and of course feel even better than I usually feel, which is pretty darn amazing. And it has been really easy. Whatever had been holding me back from accepting great health, is gone.

Another momentous moment was meeting Darren Jacklin. He is the world’s mega manifestor. When he got up to speak I was thrilled to see a man talking from his heart and passion. He was on fire and so incredibly present. I was hooked in an instant and knew I needed more of this man in my life. In whatever capacity we moved I wanted to show up.

Of course we hit it off, both of us feeling the same way about wanting to impact the world. Impact the world with positive change.

Darren and I recorded a conversation about sex, and life. You can get it free on my site. It was sent to 42 countries world wide and heard by some very influential people. Even now I am still getting emails about it.

My radio guest today was David Brooke, another superstar man who can truly be present and fully engaged. We had a great time talking about peoples belief systems around sex.

I stood outside the studio with him afterwards thinking about the last month. I thought about the fact that I made a bold statement of change in front of a whole room of people and how that bold statement was the driving force of my change.

That my change was a directive to the universe that I was ready. Ready to step to the next level in my life and career. Since then, doors of opportunity have been around me daily.

I encourage you to make those changes that are calling to you. Let go of what is not serving you any longer. Free up space for the golden nuggets of life to fill your dreams and desires.

Do it now, right now… and then write and tell me about them.

be amazing,Tanja

tonight

Tonight is ending soon.., at least for me.

This weekend is the Mens Superconference in Vancouver. I will be speaking to a room full of men about .. yep you guessed it.. sex and Tantra. It’s good to be me

On thursday I am going to do the first show of my new radio program, Tantra, love, sex and intimacy.

Contact Talk Radio. 1-2pm.. what fun, it’s been a dream of mine.

I am also getting ready to launch my new website that I personally built and did the SEO.

A year and a half ago I could not imagine that I would ever be capable of doing such a thing, I always thought of myself as so inept technically, but then I met a man.

He is my best friend, sometimes business partner, my teacher and my student.

We met and instantly loved each other. Each one of us knowing the other had knowledge that we wanted to share and to receive. We were like to little kids in a candy store.

Craig said to me, “teach me to be a man” I said to Craig ( he is a techy and internet marketer, as well as an amazing hypnotherapist) “teach me all you know as well” as I looked at his arrray of CD’s and books.

I was envious of his knowledge.

I had to rely on others to get my life into the tech world of websites and blogging and all those sorts of things. It was frustrating and I felt like it was holding me back from getting my word out and helping people.

Well we come a long way from that day.

Craig will say, he has learned so much more than he could have ever even imagined, and me, well… Im blogging, built the new site you are seeing or going to see this weekend, and I even help other people get their sites search engine optimized…  wow.. I guess anything really is possible.

I love my life and I want to share the secrets of why with you.. stay tuned on this journey..

but for now take a moment to breathe with me…. there…. and another….. let your stomach relax… make noise on the out breath… take a moment and fill your heart with the joy of the day and the gratitude of being alive.. see you soon…

Hello world!

Today started off without my usual ability to take a moment and focus on gratitude of the great things in my life.

Too little sleep, the dog whinning, my daughter complaining about her clothes and having to go out in the cold with me, blah blah blah…

Of course realizing that the moment we enter into expectation of how things should be we lose the ablity to be in the moment of what is.

Tantra is a practice of presence.

So as I  stood outside with my morning breath, needing to pee, daughter complaining about her clothes being itchy and the dog running off and not coming back …. I took a breath… I release the tension in my abdomen, felt the expansion happen and looked at the trees, heard the morning sounds of the birds and the smelled the rain.

As soon as my focus shifted I felt the wonder of this art form I study and teach.

 Tantra was created for real people living in a real world. Real worlds have family and things happening. No time to sit endlessly in silence, or meditation. The meditation of Tantra takes an active form in our daily lives. Dancing, cooking, cleaning, loving our families and making love.

My heart opened and I felt the love I have for my child, the compassion for her plight about texture, my dog’s desire to just be a dog, and my gratitude to live in a wonderful place with trees all around.

I still had morning breath, still had to pee, and all of my life’s hectic pace was waiting just outside of this moment.. but in this moment I had peace, gratitude, love and my awareness that I can be in this moment anytime I choose. We all can.